gobs13
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« on: January 23, 2010, 11:16:40 pm » |
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Before I went to sleep one night I said "I'm going to make a construct" and for the first time I did. And before I did that, my kitten curled up into my arms and feel asleep. After I felt the construct was done I too fell asleep. For a cataplectic person like me its hard to ever feel safe when Im asleep. I often go into paralysis and my dreams bind with reality (in the most disturbing ways other than this night). I felt safer than ever (maby just the thought of making a construct made me feel better, conceived or created it did its job regardless and that's what counts). I was not in a dream state, and I felt my cat moving around my head and pawing at my face like she always does, her energy was warm and was glowing baby blue. I thought I was awake in the pitch dark for a while. But in my experience my cat jumped of the bed and started roaming, I subconsciously expanded my construct to the bounds of my small room. She played around for awhile and then looked out the window. I felt here energy weaken as she walked out of my room. I again expanded my construct, but this time I made it to the first hall, by then I lost my cats energy sig and I was trying to force a construct far out to find her, but by doing so I drained my energy and it caused me to wake up. Then to my surprise I felt my cat still half-asleep in my arms when I thought she was roaming about. As a person who suffers from several sleeping disorders, I am obligated to analyze my state of being at night, and that night was like no other, I was barely asleep, it was like meditating, and I didn't feel cold when I woke up (even though the room was like 10C.
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